April 2011
2 posts
I'm feeling worse and worse, day by day.
Sunday, April 24th, 2011.
Hi, it’s been a while.
2 months and 22 days since my last blog entry. During that time period, I was actually recovering well enough that I didn’t need to pour it all out to feel better. In fact, I was actually happy. Going to bed without feeling down, and waking up in the morning, looking forward to the day. Ah, everything was good.
But I’ve brought myself down yet again. Took...
February 2011
1 post
Wednesday, February 2nd, 2011.
Might as well put a big neon sign on your forehead saying, “LOOK AT ME!!”
You complain, act like it’s casual pain, but all you’re seeking is that one person’s attention. Bitch, just shut the fuck up. Why do you have to make it all so dramatic and public? It’s like you want the whole world to know, but when the wrong person worries, you just bitch, bitch,...
January 2011
6 posts
Thursday, January 13, 2011.
How stupid of me.
I took this shot for you, because I believed in you. I believed if I could just open my heart up, just this one time, no damage would be done, and there would be nothing but happiness. I shouldn’t have. The damage is done and can’t be taken back. And now I feel..so stupid. So worthless.
“Forever.” I stopped believing in that word long ago, but somehow,...
Wednesday, January 12, 2011.
Please. Stop pretending like you care, when you really don’t. It hurts more than anything else when you do that. I’m really not unique; just another girl, right? So stop. What are you waiting for? My approval for you to carry on? Since when did I imprison you? Go. Let yourself run free. Chase after your desires. But most of all, stop wasting all your time on me. Please.
I love you,...
Friday, January 7th, 2011.
Quoth Linkin Park— “I’m holding onto what I haven’t got.”
This is so stupid, how I’m wasting so much time on this. It’s like I hardly even have a choice. Like how the planets revolve around the sun, my world seems to revolve around you. Every morning, I wake up because I want to just see you. That doesn’t always come true, but my hopes keep me...
Over-dramatic little bitch needs to get over...
Wednesday, January 5th, 2011.
Not a great start to a new year.
I’m devastated. I thought some miracle would save me from falling into this dungeon. I thought that miracle would be you. You are my miracle. The one who saved me from the brink of breaking down and giving up on life. You were like a peek of light on my darkest hour. Now, that light is gone.
I guess..this is the feeling of missing someone. I really do...
Hello to whoever's reading this.
I’m going to remain anonymous. Yes, I am a real person, and yes, these are my own posts. It’s not necessary for people to know who I am just for me to blog, right? These feelings are so secret, I fear that some may laugh at me. I’m just that afraid; I do care about what people think of me. They’d laugh because they wouldn’t understand. I will never reveal myself. The...