Friday, January 7th, 2011.
Quoth Linkin Park— “I’m holding onto what I haven’t got.”
This is so stupid, how I’m wasting so much time on this. It’s like I hardly even have a choice. Like how the planets revolve around the sun, my world seems to revolve around you. Every morning, I wake up because I want to just see you. That doesn’t always come true, but my hopes keep me going. This is so stupid, I know. It’s not like you would even care if you were my motivation, anyway.
But dang, I hate how you pretend to care, when you really don’t. You’re trying to let me down easy, not because you really want to, but because you don’t want to look like a jerk. Yes, I found out. Shocked? You shouldn’t be. Never underestimate my abilities. Don’t test them, either.
I wonder if you know what I’m going through. I wonder if you can see the pain in those eyes of mine, the ones that no longer twinkle whenever our eyes meet. I wonder if you can sense how my blood runs slow and cold, now that it isn’t fueled by happiness. I just wonder if you know I’m suffering..
You probably don’t, with your back always turned to me. Thanks a lot.
