Sunday, April 24th, 2011.
Hi, it’s been a while.
2 months and 22 days since my last blog entry. During that time period, I was actually recovering well enough that I didn’t need to pour it all out to feel better. In fact, I was actually happy. Going to bed without feeling down, and waking up in the morning, looking forward to the day. Ah, everything was good.
But I’ve brought myself down yet again. Took a plunge down that same path, thinking, “I can handle this.” Tripped over the same wire and triggered the same trap. Now I’m dangling from the same thread, and suffering..almost the same pain. I don’t know why I did all that. I don’t know why I didn’t listen to that one voice inside me saying, “Don’t do it. It’s dangerous. Get out of here.” I don’t know why I thought I would be tough enough to handle it. This is way too much for me.
